The struggle is always real. I mean for anyone running their own small business, everyone has their own way in which they and their business can struggle. But what I’m finding important in my mobile-specialty-coffee business is that, what keeps me from throwing in the towel is the passion/fire/goals that I have in mind for myself personally and within the business.

I do have passion…most days. To see new relationships happen within my business so that what I am able to do ( make coffee ) is able to help and benefit others and/or their business.

The days I don’t have passion is when things don’t work out. Really gets to me. Even the little things. I had an Australian friend ( Shawn ) say on the phone to me not that long ago ( as I vented about my struggles that I was whining about ) that I do take these things personally for sure cause I’m just too nice of a person! I emphasize about him being an Australian cause there’s something about it when a friend with an accent gives you advice/affirmation/discipline. Just seems to stick with me more than with a person who has an accent just like mine. Doesn’t seem to stick as much 🤷🏼‍♂️.

This I know about myself. I know I’m too nice. I know I’ve let people walk over me in life and in business cause I’m not one to be a jerk about things as it’s not in my character. But it has cost me a lot of things because I’ve been nice. Just can’t find it in me to be the opposite most of the time. And when I do turn away from who I am, I feel awful and gutted of what I did and what I said.

But anyways. Business struggle….

Being a mobile specialty coffee shop has its ups and downs. I love that I can basically go anywhere with my set up and make coffee for people. But being mobile has its trials when it’s not a daily cash flow. Bills need to be paid y’all, but being mobile has its advantages.

You see, when I was in Vancouver, I was running a cafe called Great Dane at UBC. As a whole, I actually really really loved my job. It brought about stresses for sure, some I couldn’t change and some I could, but all in all, I loved ‘treating it like my own’. But as I treated it like my own, I hit a work schedule of an average of 86 hours a week. Yep. This was around the time my daughter was born. And because of my crazy work schedule and trying to keep things moving, I actually have blanked out/lost memory of a stage of my daughters life. I don’t remember what she looked like. The only way I can remember or get a glimpse of what she looked like is if I go back in my photo albums.

I hate that! Yep, actually hate it. I hate that I allowed something that I’m passionate about, even though it put food on the table, to remove from my memory my own child’s growing-up-moments. Hate it.

Did I mention that I hate it? Would I take it back? Yes because it’s a moment in my life that I will never ever get back. Hate that.

So, with being mobile and being an event based cash flow business, I am getting more opportunities to spend time with my kids and my wife to make memories. There’s a line in a song that says, ‘ I wanna be rich in memories not money, our love is our inheritance honey.’

Does memories pay the bills or put food in my children’s mouth? Not really. But without memories, how can my family grow? If we can’t look back and see where we’ve come, how can we move forward?

That was deep, I know. ( Enter the sound clip for Keanu Reeves saying ‘woa’ ).

For my family, it seems like it’s comjng down to lifestyle. What lifestyle do we want? I can’t remember really a regular schedule of me and my wife going out and it just being us. That’s another distant memory. But the lifestyle we want to live is not one of excess, big house, vacation house, fancy things ( although I’m an apple fan )… more stuff. It’s a lifestyle we want to live where we can make memories, actually have dinners together, watch our kids grow and learn, be there when they cry and laugh. We want to make sure that we are the ones raising our kids, and not someone else. Sure the kids go to school, but we will try to be the ones that our kids know that we love them. That we weren’t the ones that let work and ‘a chasing of a lifestyle’ get in the way of having our little humans growing up and knowing they have parents that are around and love them. But that’s what we live and try to breathe out every day.

That was deep.

So where does that leave me with my mobile coffee business? At this moment I still crave to have my own place to have coffee and conversations be made every day. Brick and mortar. And that has its own challenges for sure. But as time goes by, and bills add up ( hello growing food bill ), something has got to change for sure. Not sure when or how, but I know it has to change.

Thanks for reading. If there was anyone reading.